12 HOURS

I woke up early.

My bed was gonna be taken away.
Spent the rest of the morning on hard solid floor.
My back aches.

I've got 12 hours left on my clock and i can't believe i'm wasting my time like this. Supposed to catch breakfast with Ru Yuan but, i'm not too sure if she's willing to wake up. I'm going to school later, retrieve some newspaper article.

Meeet my bitches!
I'm going to have lunch with Yen Yi.
She's as exited as i am to see our ugly faces.

Who knew 12 hours could be so short?
After i come back, i'll have to shower, get ready.
Maybe clean the house, pack the rest of the leftovers.

I'm off at 8.
Reach about 9.
Officially goodbye Malaysia at 11.45.

It's going to be a long trip all the way to my dad's place.
Still, i get to see my brother this Sunday!
We're getting a special visit, and that's about a 7 Hour drive from Seoul.
Still worth it.

I miss Yen Yi.
I miss Sara.
I miss Sim Kuan.
I miss myself wearing a Petronas Uniform.

I miss my ugly toad.

I DON'T KNOW YOU, BUT I WANT TO

Only if i could.

I need more time, dick-head.

But i ain't got any.

I'M JUST A PHONE CALL AWAY

The closest around you always seem to hurt you most.
I feel guilty. I don't know if I'd done any wrong. Still, it feels like my bad.

I remember their names & their faces.

Vaguely.

I didn't get at least a week of my last few days here.
Not even a week and not even the week before.
They hardly ever call. Can't blame them, i never did either.

*I pick up the phone and right before i dial, i hesitate.

What if the convo gets boring?
They'd probably have better things to waste their time on.
But then again, it could be fun.
Nah, nevermind, they'd call if they need something.
But, they don't.

*Puts down the phone. Stare blankly.

Let's just try.

*Rings, some bitch goes on; " The number you have dialled is not available..."
Trust me, i can go on. I memorised what they recite. Sobs.

Gah, I'm such a loner.

I wished i could've at least spent this week with you bitches.
Instead, i met new people and went around seeking closure.
In fact, i did, just not with you.

I feel so distant.
Their presence seems to fade.
I can vaguely recall their voices.
I don't deserve the title bitch anymore.
I don't know if i still am beef.

Help me.

SESAME-LESS

Bitch, im out of black sesame.
You know what that means, right?





I'm not liking this AT ALL.
I'm gonna look like ghandi.

FOOL, YOU DID.

See, this is when i go and bathe for hours.
I'm running out of shampoo.
I think I'm balding.
Still, i think baldness is mucho sexy.
Someone should go bald but apparently, not an option.

I'll probably be in there for about 2 hours, or longer.
Caught flu from my mum, and i am freeezing cold now.
Went for a swim. Goggle-less.
Bumped my head a few times, haha.
No surprise there :)

My mum thinks my head is too small.
She told me to bump it a few more times and,
hopefully, fingers crossed,

My head will grow slightly bigger.

And yeah, she WAS joking.

I miss my baby.
I can't listen to anything now.
No more Gavin and no more Michael Jackson.
People there are being a bitch, told me to come on Tuesday.
But still, it's not here.

I'll have to stick to my mum's color-less, ugly piece of mp3.

Got to go.
Need to go buy some shampoo.
Like i said, i ran out.

KILLER THROAT

i can't eat.

THIS IS A DISASTER.

Trust me, i am not laughing right now. Something happened to my throat today. In the beggining it was a minor irritation. Now, it's a mega disaster. I can't eat! No food, you understand me? I'll slow it down for you.
I, C A N ' T E A T.

Picture this.
Someone shoving a bag full of nails down your throat and threatening you to down it.
Yeah, that's about it.

Bitches? I need a hug. Promise you'll bring me out to dinner and get me all fattened up like a pig.
I'm pretty sure i'll delete this post some time later, kind of nagg-ish.
I thought i'd take advantage to let everyone know,

I = FOOD LOVER.

IM CRAVING YOU

I guess it's just me & more tic tacs tonight.

I binged on more chocolates and downed 6 packets of jelly beans. Amazing, huh?I never, never come across anything healthy to eat in my fridge, or whatever you'd like to call that thing.

Here's the surprise. I have 3 fridge. Two gigantic ones and a minor one. Fridge one smells like it's been marinated in dog poo. Fridge 2 is empty and hollow. Fridge 3 is packed with kimchi. You might want to google that if you're not aware of what it is.

I = HUNGRY.

It's 10 mins to 11p.m.
I know looking at his face would appease my hunger.
Talk to him endlessly.

Be childish.
Be lame.
Be myself.

Azman, bitch, biatch, ugly fugly bitch.
I know you'd understand how I'd get when I'm hungry, right?
Tantrums and bitchy looks & glares.
Toss words at you just because I'm frustrated about something that has completely no relevance to you at all.

You're so nice, you make it easy for people to overlook your flaws. Although, physically, NOT GONNA WORK. Ha ha, I'm just kidding. Well, work on it anyway :)

I'm going to go back to swallowing more tic tacs and sink into my reverie.
Have alot on my mind, might as well get things organized.

Tic Tacs + ME.