FOOL, YOU DID.

See, this is when i go and bathe for hours.
I'm running out of shampoo.
I think I'm balding.
Still, i think baldness is mucho sexy.
Someone should go bald but apparently, not an option.

I'll probably be in there for about 2 hours, or longer.
Caught flu from my mum, and i am freeezing cold now.
Went for a swim. Goggle-less.
Bumped my head a few times, haha.
No surprise there :)

My mum thinks my head is too small.
She told me to bump it a few more times and,
hopefully, fingers crossed,

My head will grow slightly bigger.

And yeah, she WAS joking.

I miss my baby.
I can't listen to anything now.
No more Gavin and no more Michael Jackson.
People there are being a bitch, told me to come on Tuesday.
But still, it's not here.

I'll have to stick to my mum's color-less, ugly piece of mp3.

Got to go.
Need to go buy some shampoo.
Like i said, i ran out.

KILLER THROAT

i can't eat.

THIS IS A DISASTER.

Trust me, i am not laughing right now. Something happened to my throat today. In the beggining it was a minor irritation. Now, it's a mega disaster. I can't eat! No food, you understand me? I'll slow it down for you.
I, C A N ' T E A T.

Picture this.
Someone shoving a bag full of nails down your throat and threatening you to down it.
Yeah, that's about it.

Bitches? I need a hug. Promise you'll bring me out to dinner and get me all fattened up like a pig.
I'm pretty sure i'll delete this post some time later, kind of nagg-ish.
I thought i'd take advantage to let everyone know,

I = FOOD LOVER.

IM CRAVING YOU

I guess it's just me & more tic tacs tonight.

I binged on more chocolates and downed 6 packets of jelly beans. Amazing, huh?I never, never come across anything healthy to eat in my fridge, or whatever you'd like to call that thing.

Here's the surprise. I have 3 fridge. Two gigantic ones and a minor one. Fridge one smells like it's been marinated in dog poo. Fridge 2 is empty and hollow. Fridge 3 is packed with kimchi. You might want to google that if you're not aware of what it is.

I = HUNGRY.

It's 10 mins to 11p.m.
I know looking at his face would appease my hunger.
Talk to him endlessly.

Be childish.
Be lame.
Be myself.

Azman, bitch, biatch, ugly fugly bitch.
I know you'd understand how I'd get when I'm hungry, right?
Tantrums and bitchy looks & glares.
Toss words at you just because I'm frustrated about something that has completely no relevance to you at all.

You're so nice, you make it easy for people to overlook your flaws. Although, physically, NOT GONNA WORK. Ha ha, I'm just kidding. Well, work on it anyway :)

I'm going to go back to swallowing more tic tacs and sink into my reverie.
Have alot on my mind, might as well get things organized.

Tic Tacs + ME.

THE AMBUSH

Eyes pop open, jaws unclench.

Yeah, i surprised many, many people today.
I ambushed my school. Undoubtedly, it was very very hectic.

" JIHEE!!.."

" JI HEE..?!"

"OMFG, IT'S JI HEE!"

"BITCH!!!!"

"OH! KOREAN!!"

Laughs. How welcoming, right?

Anyways, i met so many people I've been dying to see. Hairol grew taller. Finally! I guess his masculine hormones are kicking in. Yen Yi couldn't let go and just hung on to me. If i moved an inch, she'd get all flustered, look me in the eye and utter, " DON'T GO! ". I'm not going anywhere, yet. Chillll :) Sim Kuan, as usual, is more than beautiful. Sara, practically screamed " Hello, AUNTIE! " when she saw my mum waiting. She still dances around like a chicken with Parkinson's disease. Ha ha.

Muthu seemed taller, healthier and gay-er. Ha ha, still, Muthu = mucho sexay.

I gave Nazri the best of greetings.

" Hey, white boy! " i screamed.

" Hey, yellow girl! " he replied.

How original :) *Laughs.

China seemed pretty exasperated, probably James. Is he getting too clingy? :) I shall declare war on Mars if he breaks your heart.

And, last but not least, he smiled at me.
A smile could make a girl's day, and it could definitely break your heart.
It's true how your crush can get you to hyperventilate. I'm so close to to passing out when he's within the radius of a hundred metres from me. Sounds a little too dramatic? Fine, maybe 90 metres :)
It's the typical girl thing.

Your head spins, palms get sweaty, legs gets shaky.
The ground tremors.
Next thing you know, you pass out.

I went shopping, again, with my mum. It's funny, believe it or not, we went shopping 5 days in a row. My mum's wallet gets thinner and thinner and POOF!, next thing you know, it's buff again.
Can you imagine? It's not impossible to get sick of shopping. I personally as a girl, admit it. I'm sick of it. I don't really want to do anything anymore.

I honestly want to go to school. I guess I'm not at all sick of the colour green just yet.
Ha ha.

ProGreen, Ji Hee.

24 HOURS OF INNOCENCE

My heart was throbbing intensively.

I was getting more and more impatient as i watched my mum drove away as soon as she dropped me off. I was finally here. The stress and the anxiety i surpressed for the whole week, impatiently waiting for this day, vaporized.

I rang once.
*Silence

I rang twice.
*Tense silence, begins to shake my leg.

I couldn't help it.
" BITCH! OPEN THE DOOR!! " i screamed, forcing the bell while at it.

I was so relieved to hear her sisters yell back in return.

" WAIT! WE'RE COMING,"

One thing i'm positive about, her family's like a pro at welcoming others. As usual, they ran lke baboons and as usual gave me hugs and hugs again. I scurried to Yen Yi's room, my excitement just a little too obvious.

I realized that suns with faces, such in Teletubbies, do exist. Their faces were so bright. They looked like kids, smiling for no simple reason. No creases on their faces to show any signs of anger nor aggravation. They looked so innocent.

I practically plunged myself to hug them. My bitches. Who would've thought a week without seeing them could result in such desperation? Yeah, i was desperate to see them. What am i going to do for the next 2,3 years?

We went out for dinner and got ourselves fat.
We went shopping and got ourselves broke.
We camwhorred in a cubicle and got ourselves death glares.
We tried on cheong-sam;s and got ourselves invovlved with a very, very complicated old bitch who insisted we bought it.
We laughed at Indian videos and practically passed out, laughing.

Who cares right? We had fun. We laughed our asses off. I felt like we were little kids, lost in some play ground, atrracting whatever trouble we could, just to have fun. We were like " innocent " kids and it felt awesome to be one, again.

I wished i could've put the time on hold. Make that moment last longer than it should've.
I was genuinely happy. I just wanted to sit down in the middle of no where and put everything to a stop. Because with every step i took, i knew our time together was getting shorter and shorter.
In the deserted play ground, in the pitch dark, we got lost.
We sang, made a mess of ourselves, ran around like chickens, and still managed to save our innocence, just so the smile wouldn't fade. Just to have fun and be happy.

I wonder now, after all this time, why we didn't get around to do it more often. It's always an excuse after another. I guess times like this don't come so very often, do they?
MAKE A LITTLE EFFORT, BITCHES. And i shall too :)

YourOne&Only, ImportedKoreanBeef.

P.S, I didn't get around to spill about The Wonders of Sara's bladder. Haha, apparently, she thinks holding on to your pee for a long period of time is a talent. Yeah, she's uber talented, eh?

CURRENT ADDICTION

I realized i update my blog pretty often. This is the result of missing out school. And thumbs up to Hairol :)

He's just as lazy as i am.

I'm pretty lifeless these days, stuck at home. I go shopping with my mum when all my friends are jailed in school. Yeah, they're jailed in there.

I was rummaging through my Ipod last night. Held in on shuffle and compelled my self from touching it. I can't stick to one song for very long. Too impatient. It's true, old habits die hard.
I let it flow and came across this song, Glass - Gavin Degraw. It's a shocker why it seemed so mediocre when i once happened to listen to his songs. The lyrics is amazing.

Take a look, FOR FREE :)

Fool you made the girl fall in love

you said those beautiful things

she thought you spoke things you mean

Caress her skin like it's glass

she hears your voice making plans

and sees your face in her hands

You don't wanna see somebody beg

as you feel her heart surrender

you begin to fall

How do you say that something's through

when it never even started

at least not for you

You breathe her air and you leave

you keep your mind on yourself

and lie the glass on the shelf

After the heavenly speech

your body throws holy heat

the angels sing when our eyes meet

It wasn't a lie but it wasn't true

I just wanted to make you feel good

just wanted you near

I wasn't prepared I wasn't thinking of you

that you could actually love me

it never should have started

She's dreaming back on the past

every opinion agreed

doesn't know what to believe

It must have been for a cause

our lives have so many doors

don't think about him anymore

But it was the kiss, it took me away

it's like he knew that I am fragile

he handled me like glass

and it hurts but it's what I deserve

because I should have been more careful

with the others that I handled

I should have been I should have been

and knowing this I know that he'll get his

but I don't want the man to suffer

oh not the way I am

because deep down I know that he's glass too

but it really doesn't matter until it's happening to you

everybody breaks ,everybody breaks sometimes.

Isn't it breathtaking?

His voice is soulful. His music is inspiring. He's awesome.

I have officially fallen in love with Gavin Degraw.

I'm also addicted to; Mountains to move & Why do the men stray.

LovingGavin, Ji Hee

PASSWORDS

A few conversations. Hundreds of words. Whole lot of love.

She asked me if i was still her best friend.
I froze. Taken aback, i chose my words carefully.

" Nothings changed.." or that's what i wished.

I sighed. IN RELIEF. She really hadn't changed. We began rummaging through our memories and trust me, we were both trying so hard not to show any signs of humiliation. I miss everything we did. The more i thought about it, the lame-r we seemed, but i figured that was the point. No surprise why when i was with her, it was always exciting and enjoyable. We always knew how to have loads of fun, be it making Yin Kidd cry or simply climbing on roofs. And yeah, we really did climb roofs. In fact, it never bothered us if it rained or if the scorching sun burned our skin.

We would constantly be
somewhere sometime doing something.
It didn't matter because we had each other.

I wished nothing had changed. I wished we'd still get a chance to drive to McDonald's and eat over at your house after school and get dominion over the television to waste time on filipino dramas. I wished to be there in my so called "balcony" and wait to say good bye after swimming.
Seriously, what really did go wrong?

It's so childish to talk to you. But i know it's undeniably fun. It's okay to be childish, right? It's all right to be a kid with you. Would it hurt to laugh at a flying leaf till we hold our bellies and tear? So what if we laugh about nothing? I miss your unintentional humors and your bitchy moments. Trust me, i don't know what else to say.

I remember we sold whatever rubbish we had to students in our class to appease out hunger on RM5 chicken wings. Two fifty from you and two fifty from me. Two wings for you, two wings for me. We'll be in our swimsuits, all soaked and wet, enjoying that on a rainy day. *Laughs
I mean selling stuff from our home was fine, but seriously, you have to admit we were such rip-offs.

I miss you, Ru Yuan.
I won't be able to forget you, the password's kind of obvious.
I still can't believe you did the same thing.

Notings changed and nothing will.

Youroneandonlyfemalebestfriend, Ji Hee.